le gasp

I'm still kicking around I haven't been able to do much writing because of my back being so bad. But now, you see, I have these wondrous drugs that allow me to be some what normal while I find a good Chiropractor.

So what's new?

My Etsy continues to rack up views and favorites, but still no orders :(.

My book has gained about another 500 words. (Yeah, it's been bad.) I haven't been able to sit and focus long enough to get any kind of a flow going so I just gave up until I can find a more comfortable answer to that problem.

We had our house warming part Saturday and Sunday. It was pretty excellent considering only one friend and our parents and family showed, but it's cool. I go to eat my delicious platters with Andrew and Crystal.

ok so i'm not so productive

I did get some major grocery shopping done today. Other than that I managed to cook dinner and a desert. I've also proofed a very, very small amount of my book. Hey you gotta be able to find that silver lining. I haven't been doing much writing on any part because of my back. It might be a couple weeks before I really go nuts with a long sitting. I'm hurting pretty bad and I have to get up like every 30-40 minutes to keep my back from completely shutting down.

Right now I'm about to go make sweet passionate love to my pillow...with my face....

so that writing thing i was doing...

It's been three days since I wrote in my novel! Ok so I'll be a good girl tomorrow. Today was just way to rough I could barely even get the basic stuff done with my favorite game. I'm like a zombie...

gonna be a good girl....

Ok so I gotta hit the hay like 2 hours ago. I gotta be up super early tomorrow for a whole department count. Not looking forward to that. I haven't wrote anything in my novel in two days now :( booooooo

But I've almost finished reading a novel in the same amount of time....Research, we'll call it steamy yummy paranormal romance research.

Don't judge me.

i love...home...

So I did 1k words last night, pretty good for me! I'm just getting home from work and I'm mentally exhausted. We hosted an event at our store today and on top of that I got to help customers out too. I feel like I ran circles all day. My hubby did come see me after lunch though :3 I felt so special.

So my game plan for tonight is going to be a loose one. I'm going to hope on Equiverse until I'm done playing with my virtual ponies. Then I'm going to hop back into my book. Maybe I can squeeze out another 1k words, who knows, I even amaze myself sometimes. ;D

argh

Ok, so today had it out for me! But I'm not about to let it win. I went to bed last night with a migraine, woke back up with it this morning. Noticed I was completely out of my nicotine patches. Asked Andrew to pick me up a box and drop them off at work for me on his way home. I took two Tylenol at 7 this morning. By 9 I still had the migraine so I took two excedrin migraine (getting desperate). Felt better until lunch so I took a BC, which refused to go down my throat like it should and instead it went up my nose from my throat. Migraine=a million times worse plus my nose is on fire. Go to the bathroom to potty and blow my nose in the hopes it stops burning only to discover my Aunt Flo decided to be a dick and completely ruin what was left of my day/week.

Gah.

At least I'm not pregnant....


But it shall not overcome me!!! Continuing to write in my book.

back to work

So, I had a lovely two days off. I cooked, cleaned, cleaned, and then cleaned some more. Didn't get any time to play with my plants, but oh well. I did however get to almost 2k words in my novel. Not a blaring speed for a novelist I'm told, but it's definitely a goddamn start!

and she's off...

Ok so I'm writing. Actually writing.

Like the first chapter.
It's real. It's happening.



Not as quickly and easily as I'd hoped, but it's happening and that's what matters. Just gotta stay strong and keep on chuggin. "Toot, Toot"

two in one day, this must be a record

Ok so after hours (read hour, as in 1 hour, 60 minutes) of self promotion on Facebook I got my Etsy up to like 11 views for today and 4 favorites. Gah. Would it kill someone to just buy my stuff...Please?! I'd like to pay the mortgage :D And possibly some food this week. :D

-in my most angsty 90s voice- "the world is a vampire"

So we're having a bit of money woes this month. We are still adjusting to our mortgage (this being our second mortgage payment) and tempers have flared between Andrew and me. I have basically told him he needs to get a better job, as I am trying to do. Retail isn't cutting it anymore and even though I'm making a good amount of money (I'm almost at 30k/year where as he is only at about 20-22k/year.)

He wants to say because he supported me while I was going to college, instead of us both going to college that this is why he does not have a good job. I believe it may be holding him back in some aspects, but you know what. I fought tooth and nail to get through college. I worked 2-3 jobs, and took care of my horse and him while I was going to college 2 nights a week. It took me 4 years to get a 2 year degree because I worked for it. Yes I had help from my parents and my Grandma and he helped pay a majority of the bills while I was doing what I had planned on doing since I was a kid. My parents helped me save for college since I was a rugrat. We did 4h and sold hogs, they made me a savings account. They tried to aim my stupid teenage ass in the right direction, they tried to mold me into a scholarship machine, too bad I was a stubborn bitch.

He on the other hand didn't have the opportunities I did. If he wanted to go to college he basically needed to figure that out in Freshman year and make all straight A's all the way through because from what he's told me they just didn't have the money to do the things that my parents did for me. And that's fine. Everyone has their things they need to take care of in life.

I don't think it's asking to much for him to just start putting in applications in at other companies. To start molding his resume, and perfecting his interview skills. He says I've de-emasculated him by asking him to get a better job. I didn't exactly say it the nicest way possible, but unfortunately he's not the kind of person you can say these things nicely to. He's always been that way, I've known him for almost 10 years now....I think I'd know.

So we argued all night. Griped at each other and went to bed mad. I tried to make nice, but he wanted to be mad, so I let him. He can be mad if it finally lights a fire under his ass to get out of this job he hates.

I decided to get mad at what's really the problem, my job. I've been putting in applications and resumes all week. I've been pushing my Etsy account. I've been TRYING to write in my novel, even if I'm not getting very far at least I'm trying! He wants to sit and play video games and watch t.v. and mope about it! I'm sick of the "woe is me" shit. Time to grow up. Call me a bitch I don't really care.

Ok so yeah we all know I'm bad at this but.....

Gonna try to make this a bit more regular. You know at least once a month.....


I am going to connect this blog with my Etsy in hopes of getting a handful more hits. I'm offering 10% off for Facebook users, but I'll offer the same here. Just enter Promo Code FB123.

So what's new with me??

Well I'm now living in my first home, that is I am now a home owner. I am trying to launch my Etsy and make some money off all these beads and buttons I can't seem to stop buying. Oh yeah and I'm attempting to write a novel. All on top of a full time job :D

I can do it. I have faith...shit someone's gotta.